The Best Things In Life Happen When Least Expected.....

That is what someone told me recently and I am beginning to believe it. Out of nowhere things are starting to make sense, so much sense. And I realize that what might not make sense to everyone else does happen to make sense to me and that is all that really matters. I do care what people feel and I don't want to hurt anyone's sensibilities by my actions or words, but I have to stop caring what they think so much. They are not walking in my shoes or living every second of my life. Only I am doing that. I have been living my life worrying so much about what other people think of every little decision that I make for so long and it has done nothing but make me miserable and second guess myself every step of the way. I am learning that it shouldn't be that way, I should be living my life in the way that I am supposed to be and that the way it's supposed to be is between myself and God and that is it. So what are these best things that are happening? Well I am finally getting myself back into the workforce. Granted, its a temp job but it's still something. I am getting out and about and remembering what it's like to be an independent woman. I am closer to my family than before, but learning that they don't need to know every aspect of my life in detail. I am losing weight. I am hanging out with my friends more often and am even more engaged in their lives. I am involved in helping out at church again. And I even found someone in my life who I can completely be myself around and not have to stand on pretense with . It's a wonderful feeling. And in hanging out with this person I began to realize that all of the friends I have in my life are actually like this. They like me for who I was, who I am now and who I am going to be in the future. They do have concerns about certain things, but they wouldn't change me for the world. It's wonderful to realize that there are people out there who look at you and want you in their lives just because you are who you are. I have been keeping many things from many people for fear of what they might think about how quickly I am moving on with my life. But I think I can share this here. There is someone that has been putting a smile on my face. He's helped me to see that even though you may plan for one thing in your life, life doesn't always think that that is the best plan and you just have to roll with it. I used to fight life every step of the way and do things the way I thought that would protect me from being hurt, but all that did was bring me more pain. So I decided to follow his lead and not plan for anything, just let life take its course. And this course is taking me down a road I very much like. This road is making me happy, it's making me smile and it's giving me faith in something I had long lost faith in. And the best part is, I actually have a travelling companion on this road. :-)